Everything we do is related to what we don’t do. Not in a philosophical sense, I’m referring more to how a life evolves, if left to live peacefully and mindfully, over the time span of a lifetime. The day-to-day deeds kind of know how to get you where you want without your realising that is where you want or need to go. And then a lifetime is up, and what have you got? I’m not sure if I make sense, but I’m grappling with an inside world that rules my outside, with the ironic on my. Sometimes I feel I will never be more than ten; sometimes I feel this is because I have tens of lifetimes before this ten year-old self I only am.

I am reading Larry McMurtry’s memoir called Books. I have read Walter Benjamin at the Dairy Queen and Roads, and know there must be a good explanation why the lives of cowboys, specifically pioneers who were cowboys, interest me so. For the past few weeks, I keep on reading McMurtry’s books about a history and culture so foreign to my physical world only because I cannot reason my strange draw towards the life, myth and landscape of the cowboy. The truth is, even the historical (real) cowboy is as unreal as the celluloid cowboy. Yet I feel I must be connected somehow in this trilogy of the surreal, real and ideal lives. This strange familiarity…

Told ya. Bookstores or studios and homes with great bookshelves have this beckoning, whispering Come here, Bridget, come here…. We have a book of all books that you must find… and so another one we step in. There are two I particularly like, both in Amsterdam, and both run by old couples with a penchant for being hardly out there. They stock good, rare (not in the antiquarian notion) titles that someone from somewhere will not find anywhere else.

There’s only one.

A good cover.

I’ve always thought the title said too much. Little Girl Blue, the new biography of Karen Carpenter by Randy Schmidt, is out July 2010. I hope this one is different from the others, with Light.

Keith Bosley

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From Watchwords Two, part of our collection of old, collectible books in store.